I mentioned a few months ago I was having surgery ā but I never shared the details of what, when, why. That was, at first, because I was not sure I was going to share the details with many, if any, people.
But, as time goes by, I have come to the realization that keeping it a secret doesnāt really serve any purpose and telling people doesnāt really matter.
So, here goes nothinā
Back in February, I had gastric bypass surgery. I had come to the decision last fall that I wanted to do something to get a handle on my health and was fortunate enough to be approved for the surgery quickly and things just went from there.
Iāll post my story a little at a time over the next couple weeks ā just in case you are interested. Donāt worry, there will still be scrapbooking and mommy posts ā Iām not changing the focus of my blog. I just feel like I am only being partly truthful with you guys when I post these days because there are such major changes happening right now in my life ā changes in my body but also in my heart and soul. I wanted to share the whole story with you so that I can continue to share authentically ā and include the stories of the changes Iām experiencing and the new āmeā Iām finding as I get healthy and fit.
So, thatās my big secret.
Iāll tell you why I have hesitated sharing for so long āoriginally it was because I was embarrassed and a little ashamed. I mean, this is something I never thought I would doā¦ but then again, I never thought Iād get as big or as unhealthy as I did, either. And, I admit, I struggled with feeling like I was ācheatingā a little by having the surgery.
I donāt feel that way anymore.
This is not cheating. Itās still a daily struggle. Itās still hard to lose the weight. Itās just a little easier now because I have another tool in my arsenal as I fight the battle against obesity and ill health. But I still have to be diligent about every thing I put in my mouth ā even more so now post-surgery, than I ever was before.
I am learning the difference between fueling my body and feeding my body. Two very different things. Iām learning that itās more important to fill my body with wholesome, whole, unprocessed foods, than it is to indulge in those treats I used to think I deserved. Now I know I deserve better. I deserve good health, energy, happiness and a long life.
I am rejoicing in the newfound energy I have. I am loving the fact that at the end of the day, I am tired, but it is a good tired, the kind that comes from knowing you have earned the right to be tired. Not the kind that comes at the beginning of the day as you rise out of the bed, sick and tired and wondering how you are going to make it through another day.
So, Iāll probably share tidbits from time to time ā letting you know about my journey. I hope you donāt mind. You see, this blog is as much my journal as it is a place to share with you. It helps me organize my thoughts and feelings and sort things out. Sometimes they arenāt ārealā until I see them on the blog.
So, stay tunedā¦ more of my story is to come.
Good luck to you Lois!I don’t think its cheating at all, weight is always a hard topic to handle so well done for sharing it! š
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Thanks, Kate. I’ve struggled with whether or not to share but finally decided that it was more important to be genuine than private.
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I’ve followed your blog for some time now, and over the last several months I’ve wondered if that’s what you did. I only know because I’m an almost 3-year post-op RNY patient who’s LOVING life now! You are right — it’s a daily struggle – not cheating – just a tool! Let me know if you ever want to talk!
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Wendy, I wondered yesterday when I read your post about the sugar in the coffee drinks! I’m glad to hear that you are enjoying the fruits of your labor. I’m finally getting into a routine where I don’t feel like I have an alien in my body. Now, the secret is not getting complacent and keeping up the work that I know I need to do to get to my goal.
Thank you for sharing!
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The VERY best advice I can give you is this — keep the simple carbs and sugars out of your life FOREVER!! Looking forward to following your journey to healthiness!
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I’m touched by your honesty and openness and hoping for lots of good things for you in the months ahead. I am sure we will be following and cheering you on!
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